Dreams and secrets

25.02.2012

J. — Sat, 25 Feb 2012 20:01:28 +0000

Due to some circumstances in my life I had to change the settings to private, but things are back to normal now.

I do apologise for it…

On a happier tone, got my beloved HTC Wildfire S back, well, yes, I had to buy a new one but hey.. I truly needed it. Only after that incident happened I realised how much I rely on it.And the weather in UK is freaking awesome! Well, as awesome it can be, I’m just happy is so warm compared to RO.

Oh, and looking for graduate jobs in my field is an absolute pain!

19.02.2012

J. — Sun, 19 Feb 2012 16:21:33 +0000

Once again home was a bit disappointing and I tried to stop this from happening. Nu stiu, m-am schimbat iar prea mult, nu mai am chef si rabdare pentru lucruri fara sens, sau sa fiu politicoasa pentru ca trebuie si tot asa. Singurul lucru bun a fost ca mi-am vazut parintii si cei doi-trei prieteni care ii mai am pe aici. In rest.. frig, zapada multa, vremea gri nu a ajutat deloc la starea mea care se pare ca nu mai scap in ultima vreme. Sunt extrem de irascibila si parca nici eu nu stiu de ce, ba nu. Stiu de ce, numai ca refuz sa constientizez. Screw you B. Am gasit telefonul vechi din 2009, ca deh, a trebuit sa il folosesc in lipsa celuilalt, si am gasit un folder ascuns cu mesaje de la el. Hah, daca nu era mama in camera cred ca as fii inceput sa plang in hohote. Uitasem parca stilul lui de a scrie un mesaj, uitasem ca imi mai scria in engleza, uitasem ca imi zicea ‘darling’ , ‘my lover’.. uitasem cate mesaje primeam cu ”Te iubesc. ‘ de la el. Uitasem. Le-am sters in speranta ca o sa ajute. Oh doamne, macar constientizez ca sunt patetica. Anyway, my flight is in 12 hours, so I’ll be once again far away from here and all these memories.

And you, my ‘Master’, bet you think o high of yourself, trying to play with my mind. Guess what, I just played along towards the end, your stubbornness regarding changing to emails did it. It’s not that difficult to setup an email account as I’m sure you know. Yes, I am intrigued by everything and you made me think again about BDSM but those comments are nothing if you truly wanted us to meet. Too bad you can’t punish me for this besides ignoring me. And also, you kinda screwed up my wordpress by using the same email address, wordpress thinking you were me at some point. Annoying. Oh, and you’re lucky that you have a dynamic ip address as I truly don’t think your name is ‘Emil’ or ‘Emy’ , as these were the names of the devices connected to the router that had one of your ip addresses. Too much effort and time to try again, so no worries regarding that in the future.

Lost phone :((

J. — Mon, 13 Feb 2012 17:40:09 +0000

Imi vine sa rad si sa plang, my UK phone got lost/stolen in like 5 minutes. I managed to call UK Vodafone to suspend my account till I get back, and also apparently the guy blocked my phone so no one can use it. At least I have that satisfaction as it was quite a good phone, and fuck.. the info that is on it, da chiar cel, bine ca nu am lucruri pe card sau cum naiba se numeste. Oh well, cel putin am vechiul telefon de Ro , cu numere and stuff.. si restul, facebook frate. Nu imi aduc aminte daca am asigurare la el .. hmmmm ..

In rest, e gen fairy tale pe aici, ninge intr-una si sunt nameti de zapada si pe cat de naspa este pe atat de fain arata. My BFF may get stuck in France though.. her flight is already delayed and DN1 it’s possible to close again.

Snow anyone?

J. — Sun, 12 Feb 2012 17:44:38 +0000

Well.. sunt acasa. Si e frig, si ninge si si.. am inghetat. Nu mai sunt obisnuita si se vede, ai mei stau in casa in tricou si eu am doua plovare pe mine si tot dardai de frig. Imi vine sa si rad, plus cand am iesit afara m-a lovit frigul la maxim. Oh well, aceste 7 zile care au mai ramas or sa fie interesante.. My BFF is coming tomorrow from France, her birthday is on Thursday, and me and guys already had a talk about going out with everyone, so yeah.. can’t wait.

This song is slightly addictive ..

Just peachy.

J. — Wed, 08 Feb 2012 05:27:32 +0000

I can’t say I’ve had the best weeks of my life recently… no, they were horrible. Been in hospital with really bad tonsillitas, they discharged me, found my hasmter dead (of old age), got back in hospital as it got worse again, got discharged again after a few needle mishaps (disliked that nurse) and a few days later my father told me my nan died. So.. yeah, I’m just peachy. Was thinking to change my flight to get home earlier for the funeral, but had no money as I missed 2 weeks from work, and also with all the snow situation back home no one would have been able to come and get me from the airport. It didn’t quite hit me yet, that my nan died I mean. Yes, I was a bit of a mess the first few days, especially when I was calling home, but now I don’t know what to feel. It’s so easy to get back to ‘normal’…work and university…

In a way I’m dreading to go home now on Sunday.. I mean, yes, I can’t wait as I haven’t been home since August, but with the recent events, think I’ll be just in the middle of everything… I really hope everything will be fine, also starting with my flight not getting delayed or cancelled. It started to snow a bit in my region and in general they’re freaking out if its snowing, so yeah, I’m hoping I’ll get home when I’m supposed to.

Mr.T is confusing me.. and I’m missing LV a bit? Also, going home is bad for my sanity as I’m starting to have dreams again with B. What the fuck is wrong with me? I truly don’t get it why I’m so scared of accidentally meeting him….

Spital

J. — Fri, 27 Jan 2012 21:25:55 +0000

for a few days i will be unavailable.

Va multumesc din suflet celor care mi-au urat de bine. …